Building a LAMP server

The most difficult part of building a LAMP server is getting it on the internet.

Drunken blog posts....

Why do people send drunken text messages? Do I really care that you are plastered at 3 am? I have a problem of writing drunken blog posts. I always regret posting the message the next day, yet I don’t want to delete what I have written because it’s a good message. I have written so many papers and documents for work that my spelling a grammar is very good. I can spill out a few paragraphs about any topic and then edit the work with very few mistakes; all while being too drunk to stand up straight. To all the people I wrote messages to the other night or the people that read my last blog post I apologize. When I am drunk, just like everyone else, I tend to tell people too much. Yet, after the hangover goes away I fell better that I told every how I feel. It helps to get it all off my shoulders.

Why be fearful of who I am?

I recently joined eharmony. I took the personality test and the personality test told me something that is true. I have a closed off personality. I have trouble showing others my feelings. I tend to close myself off from others. I have been burned many times and I tend to feel like it’s my fault. In reality, I didn’t do anything wrong, but I still feel like it’s my fault. I don’t want others to see my soul, but I do. I want people to understand who I am, but they cannot read minds. In reality I want people to understand who I am, but I have trouble telling people how I feel because I am fear full of what they will think. Why is it so hard for me to display me feelings for others? I don’t have the answer. Probably because I have been burned so many times that I don’t want to be hurt again.

I met a woman, not a girl, chick, or female. I am woman that is that type of person that I would like to spend more time getting to know. A woman that has her own mind that does not always represent that norm; what is the norm anyway?

On one side I don’t want to be afraid of my feelings. On the other side I don’t want to scare the potentials off. I am the type of person that can’t adapt to any situation. I want people to like me, love me, and I think they do. I am a likeable person. The question becomes; do they like me because I adapted to the situation to make myself more likeable, or do they like me for who I am.

Do MMOs Developers listen to their Customers?

May 10, 2009

I haven’t played any games recently. I think I might be growing out of the addiction. It makes me wonder what I will do now. I think the biggest worry is that I am not moving on to better things otherwise I wouldn’t be thinking about growing out of anything. Really I would love to keep playing games, but the game I want to play does not exist.

I have played most of the popular MMOs. My two longest played MMOs were Planetside and World of Warcraft. In between those two game I have tried Horizons, Everquest 1 and 2, Warhammer Online, Eve, Vanguard: Saga of Heroes, Guild Wars, Lineage 2, Starwars: Galaxies, and Age of Conan. Planetside was my first MMO. I was coming from a background of FPS and RPG games such as Counter Strike and Diablo2. Planetside was fun until it became obvious that the developers didn’t know what the fans wanted and where putting anything that thought might sound cool to someone that has not played the game. For some reason they were constantly looking to attach new fans before making their current fan base happy. I learned a long time ago that alienating your best customers and only looking for new customers to fill their spot is the hardest type of sales. The goal of all business, game studios are businesses, is to make money. A company cannot make money if the fans (customers) are not happy.

The real Colonoscopy experience

I know a lot of you are getting old and are going to have to go through this. At 27 I did think I would need a colonoscopy, but to make sure the infection was not something really serious the doctor through it was best. The colonoscopy part wasn't that bad cause they put you to sleep before the big camera goes up your ass. The really shitty part is the clean out the night before.

 You have to drink this horrible liquid. Now people are going to tell you to pick the worst flavor, that’s what I did, big mistake. They say you will associate the favor with the process and hate that flavor forever afterwards. But if you already like cherry you will not stop liking it just because it reminds you of this process plus the liquid already tastes really bad so there isn’t reason to make it worse. Choose your favorite flavor or the flavor with the most bite so you can only taste it and not the liquid. After the first 2 glasses head for the bathroom and wait there for the next 6-8 hours cause there is no way you can run fast enough to beat this stuff. One min you are fine the next the shit is out your ass and you are only half way to the bathroom.

After awhile its starts to come out clear or dirty clear like you have been eating sand. At this point it’s almost over. Don’t drink anything, just stay close to the bathroom and try to get some sleep.

After it’s all over they don’t want you eating anything heavy so just stuck to water and Jell-O. My shit was coming out green and looked like ooze. After the second day everything returned to normal. It’s an experience I will not treasure, but I will not make the same mistakes next time. My recommendation is get a good book or move the TV into the bathroom because you are many hours of free time. 

Seats getting smaller or Americans getting fatter?

I am flying to Indianapolis today. I have not been on a plane in several months and it seems the seats are getting narrower or I am getting fatter. I never understood why people put up with the cramped conditions on airplanes. At one point it wasn’t this cramped, but seems the seats get smaller and Americans get fatter. Are the airlines secretly telling us that we must lose weight so we can fit in their planes or are they hope we get fatter so we have to buy more than seat?

It does not help that I asked for this 17” laptop and now I cannot open the screen all the way in my cramped coach seat. The screen size is great when the laptop is stilling on my desk or in the kitchen, but using it on a plane is almost ridiculous.

I have been looking into getting a Netbook, but I don’t know if I can deal with the cramped keyboard and screen. For my desktop computers I have always looked to by the largest screen possible and have become used to huge amount of real state a 22” monitor can provide.

I would be great of companies could make Netbooks with 13” monitors. It seems companies to sacrifice weight for extra battery life and a larger screen.

Down to twitter

I am tying to see the point of twitter, facebook, and texting. does no one talk to other over the phone anymore?